In Now!

Hey,
What are you upto these days?
How are you?
How are you really feeling?
Are you happy?

Oh God! Four questions in one Go!
Whatever,atleast they are asked.
Com'n Answer,
Actually,These days  honestly I am in a transition state.I don't want to go much in detail.
As far as,my well-being is concerned;I am really Good!
I am feeling really strong,I am Growing.
It may sound funny but I am really learning with the process of growing,well aware everybody grow in the same way but my process is strange!
Strong,Unaware,smart,innocent all of bits in a single moment and the best Part: I Get it when all is done! :) It also carry the Irony because still at the time,I make fun of myself as always because I suppose fretting over that will not do much Good!
Anyway,whatsoever I am happy not being neutral on self but happy with my core along with spreading the cheers around as well.
As its really feels Good and blessed when people come to you and they say: I make Good time with you or any heartfelt gratification like I am lucky for them,or even my used things make them happy.Its really empowering for the soul.
But I won't say that I don't have downtime,I accept, I do have but I am stubborn for those time and people,I fiercely shrug them off.Not like I don't love them but to be very honest I love Myself,I can never allow them to pass over me no matter how dear I keep them to me because afterall at the end its ME and I can never tolerate a Regret Taking over to my Pillow!
So Anybody with a unintentional agenda also  should stay a mile away from This burning Sensation bcuz I can never tolerate My Self-esteem crushed over!

Godbls!
Luv ya!
Preksha*

In love!

"I am in love"
Yeah, So casually I know.I always know things before hand.That's the thing about smartness,Just to sense the outcome before it goes viral.
Actually,the interesting part is # I am a detective,Please don't rate me less than "Sherlock Holmes",I will prove my worth in the time to come.
Anyway coming straight to the point,What I am pondering over is : #Touchwood first of all,I think :#I am getting beautiful.
Over and out! Please don't make fun but trust me,I am not applying those "Dadi-Maa k Nukse" ,Neither those expensive beauty products that unnecessarily empty our pockets,Atleast I find it vaguely insane to invest on that.Moreover,they can damage the skin I suppose but the point comes that why I am thinking I am getting beautiful these days. Wait! This is not my created story,Actually people around me are saying so:Is I am applying something or blah blah things! That are really all wrong,I am not.Even, I am thinking are they just making fool of me,So someday I invest much more time in front of mirror assessing my each feature:Literally I mean there is nothing to laugh about it I am serious,I really look where it's shining,where it's redness,how big my nose is(Dumbledore like;I am not making fun of me,I really think it resembles),Sometimes the eyelids,the each mark on lips surface,I mean it can really seem like I am insane but I do.
Even my nearby people have started quoting me alien,that's weird but I don't mind much but yaa it's in my mind.As there is a certain limit of clicking selfie,and Trust me I have crossed it.
So somedays I completely skip watching myself in the mirror,skip every sight of the door Mirror or any reflections.As I have heard,Its sort of old myth at home to look very much in the mirror,it diminishes the beauty,I don't know if I am that beautiful but I feel like this,Pretty much like a Beauty queen and I can't resist to admit but I remember the days when I always doubted my beauty.
Whatever,I am not sure about the certainty but I feel confident about my every feature and every body part.I feel secure in Self-Physically,Mentally and emotionally.
I don't have any complain to the Creator,I really lift up my Arms to Praise! To Cheers!To Raise a Toast and To Say that : You did a extremely outstanding job and I am impressed!
I Really hope you get appreciated for this from other sources also!
Love you Infinite!
Godbls!
Preksha*

Diva in a Up-down Mood!!

Numerous Songs on my playlist: Playing like Creating chaos on my silent mind! No,I actually can't listen a single track anymore. What I really want to do is: I want to Go upstairs,experience the Night Sky,the twinkling Stars,the coldness of the approaching depth of Night,the all over free wind touching my skin and the silence that I need. But sometimes,even getting up from bed,seems like a tough task.I am not down on energy, but just not willing to carry myself there,Sounding like a Enthusiastic Paralytic Patient.
Anyway, why does Preksha have to follow her always? Today she is not in a mood to follow what she wants.
Does it seems like a Rigid child getting annoyed from his/her Parent?
Actually,a brutal truth,I feel like a Rigid child who always follow her own bossy Nature like I'm the Parent but I am annoyed now and Now I don't want to .
What are you going to do then?
Pretty interesting question.Although I am playing this questionnaire series because I am blank and just writing anything to get even more empty or you can Say,I don't understand what I feel like,Neither I wanna dance,nor write a Poetry.Also I am having my eyes on my incomplete painting but hiding myself in me like a student who hasn't done his homework,so escaping the eyes from the Teacher.Also innumerable pending tasks but I am writing like anything.See my Ana & Eve series peeping from my mind but I am shuting it up like a Tiffin box, like I do when I am not in a mood to eat.
Also, the left out area of my idea of designing clothes for Myself is taking a back seat .Everything's screaming around me,but I am behaving like a Deaf,Doing Nothing as a silent main Priority.
Com'n,I can't listen of Preksha everytime, Sometimes, I need my Only Ruling Time!!
Hehe...
Whatever Diva! I am not listening to your Rules! Gotta break the Process!
Flower Maiden needs Rest on her Queen-Size bed for a little while longer!
Relax My love!

Luv ya!
Godbls!
Preksha*

Selcouth

Just wondering, If Every conversation floated like a feather in Air-So light,so Pure,No mess of wrong intentions;Presence of Two being like it would have been in Divine world,at the infinite place where there is no limitations,only abundance.Whatever they feel like-They can discuss,whatever they want like-They can Create-Achieve.
Maybe,Much like a Poetry to Treasure Forever.That if once spelt out or recited can go on like a decade.Not like a legend of love-That are famous among the young breathers,but more like a One energy-That compliments each other so perfectly that they are like independent in their own skin.
Sometimes,they can act as a Radioactive,if situation demands so,yet at other time they are as mellow and innocent like a Rabbit.
They understand what they are~their insecurities & strengths .And stand on them as their own,Not look up the shoulders of their counterparts,when they actually have to manage the situation in a mess,Not even of each other.
Well,this is completely a form of writing,that's not real,not yet a fiction but something in between.
Not everything is meant to be explained,sometimes the best descriptions are silence,it embarks the beginning.
P.s: I titled it Selcouth,as the form of writing & state of feeling was more like Selcouth.

Luv ya!
Godbls!
Preksha*