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I want to speak out.Just juggling with the sea of thoughts has ultimately increased the pain in my chest.Its really very unusual feeling.I feel left out.No I am not sad but a little not the usual self.The "Me" That I usually love has distant itself from me.I know its for a bit of time I will back to normal.But a little pinch and I'm gone.
Grow up Preksha!.You are not meant to be this way!
I'm very impulsive that I shouldnot be,But I cant say because I Love me!
 I appreciate the way I pamper myself and come out strong but these frequent loss of self haunts me and I'm in tears.
A situation in which I don't want to take hold of any shoulder as such but Yes! I long for something Magical and yet real at the same time.Though I know reality bugs me but its my inability not to trust the invisible to happen because Miracles have a way to happen in my life.
But right now,I am gathering myself.Not in a mood to explain . Does it happens with everybody?
Answer infinite!
Luv ya!
Godbls!

Get.Set.Go !!

So finally,I realised that I should properly take care of myself.
Its true;sometimes you are supposed to be shaked to come in senses.Anyway,watever I am happy for the new challenge as now I will sincerely take care of myself.
First of all I am soo excited that i will myself work on my health for the best results.
Apple is not that bad I realised in the process.As its said also :An Apple a day keeps doctor away.I kind of hate doctors and their medicines.I although understand that for people struggling between life and death,They are like a god.That no less highlights their true value.But if I will take care of myself then atleast i will not fall into their trap.
Secondly,Peeling pomegranate was a tough job that I never wondered to do.But no worries let me try that too.Thirdly,I'm sincerely trying banana-milk Power.Let me see what it has.
Finally,let me try a frequent habit of moving my mouth every now and then.But this time not for talking but for eating.Just for a change.And become a connoisseur of food. ;)
Anyway,from now on the full focus of mine is on only me.And i have decided that till diwali I will become a happy chubby cutie-pie.:)
Hopefully! I am not changing my words.
Happy Caring Preksha!
Best of luck!
Take care Garnier!
Luv ya!
Godbls!

My heart!

I just want dead calm silence around me,A pin-drop silence basically.
I dont really know what its like to be a understanding and an intellectual person but I know whatever the understanding I have it points me to be wrong.Actually i dnt know exactly.I want to know is it bad to say what you feel?Is it bad to act on impulse?If in case it is ,so then for sure I'm wrong.But whenver I deeply ponder I dnt understand why I feel that I am right atleast I dnt have to keep it to my heart and lock my feelings inside the box.
But usually it happens when I express ;I regert it later as if why did I said that.Although its also true that I shook away the feeling quickly and I am exaggerately happy again from the innumerable sources of divine.But This is the problm with me and I know it that when I am happy ,I am exaggerately happy and when I am sad ,I Just shatter in myself.Though I'm strong enough to collect myself and be the whole again or say a cheerful girl again and I forget all but this feeling again & again is irritating for myself.
But i also want to know that Is it normal to get hurt or bruised very soon?That is clear to me that when you love someone you atleast expect that the person should listen to you.What is wrong in that?I dnt understand do listening affect people? what is the problm to give a listening ear to them.Does that so costly?everybody can realise that when somebody doesnot listen ,it means that you are not valued,not respected.
I can be silent and i do stay silent but whatever i have to express, I express. if not in the moment then after some moments but I cant keep so long.I want but I cant.
Infact I can,But when i try to create big walls around me it makes me feel negative and I am very rigid to tolerate a negative moment.I prefer to stay light and its only possible when I say my heart.
I love every creature,yeah soo much but still I love more to myself!

Luv ya!
Godbls!