Chaotic Obsession !!!

Have you Ever Been so chaotic that the world around you seems to Get chaotic every now and Then? And Yet you Happen to find beautiful Things amongst it and also you end up Getting obsessed about it!
Is it bad? Or Is it a Sound thing among the chaos?
Honestly, I think I am very much aware of My Every cell! I feel that it is Sound ,As I  am well aware of my "Every Single cell". So Here I am not Showing that I am smart enough of my existence but I am Pretty sure of Myself! Yes I am. For instance, I know I make really long sentences and convey my feelings in hyper explanation that I don't really like,I feel its kind of Mess Doing This way but See I am doing that Inspite of knowing This. Its kind of chaos in writing, but still I do it! Even I am made that way,that I think its Beautiful! And See How I am boasting of Myself .I am even not Guilty for that,Instead I am obsessed about My Chaos . I believe Its Beautiful !! Although, For Some Living Beings It Might Be Weird ! I mean If I Frankly State then I am Pretty Much sure It is Weird, As People around Me and Associated with me Make me understand That I Might be Psychotic! And Trust Me I am not ashamed of that Too, I Think Being Chaotic Is Weirdly Beautiful!
Here, I am Telling you About My Dream that's Really weird! I mean as I am not a Dream Interpreter So I Think It to be weird! - " I saw That I have Just Reached to Faculty Room of My College and I see my Old College Friends Sitting there on Stairs and I quietly Stand at one Corner(I look same as I Look Now ,As I Saw my Reflection In the Glass) But I see A Girl Standing Right in Front of My eyes  And that Is Girl Is My Old self(As I use to Look Before, while I was in College) .I Ask my Old Self that- "Jump Down from here ,I ask her Again and Again that Jump Right down from here but My Old Self is quiet and smiling,She is Not jumping down! Although back in my mind I am scared as I know if she jumps, I will Die as its Me who I am asking to Jump down But Still I say to her Again and Again , She is not  Moving a Single inch!
Though the Height was not much,It was just first floor where we were Standing But I Must Say This Dream clearly Says I am chaotic! Or Maybe psychotic ! Anyway, I Still Conclude My Dreams To be beautiful and Myself to Be Chaotic Beautiful ! And Undoubtedly I am obsessed about my Chaos,As I Still not want Myself To be Any other way! I am Proud to be Beautiful This way!
Not Today,And Definitely Not tomorrow I will Change My Vision- The Things That I am Learning being in Chaos, I would have never learnt any other way! I am insanely Crazy with the Definition I am Going to Give my Life! Trust Me That will Surpass all the Chaotic bridges My Future Self will come Across with!
Hold on Tight your Racing Breath,You Might Not be Able to Catch-up with My Steering wheel that's Controlling The Left corner of My System!
Breathe ! Let Go ! Catch Up !
Love ya!
Godbls!
Preksha*

Crazy Drive Off Limits!

Sometimes Few quests and questions roam in the Mind like-Honeybees are fled from the honeycomb! You can't Really Control them or Restrict the idea of their Freedom! Trust me You can't If you have that Crazy quest Inside.
And, Here I must Tell you that ,It could be anything ,I mean Anything; So I urge you to Not get judgemental about that Crazy Drive! Instead, You should Fire the Flames even more If you want to Experience The Real Magic!
So My Idea of Crazy Drive Is Travelling. Don't quickly Just Picture ,That It's Something like A week long Trip or a world Tour! Yeah, That sure Is Fun , Off limits!! But A Day off which is Just Two hours away from The Hustle - Bustle of the City Might Sometime Give you that Pleasure and Experience , that It can easily beat your one month vacation!
Travel is that Idea of Escape when you don't Really need a Partner, I believe if you head on your journey with just the Spirit of Exploring with your Mind Damn Open,You End up Meeting Some Really Influential People That It can totally Change your Perspective on Life!
So Hold on, Breathe ; I am not Persuading you any Particular destination Or a Travel Company to Look Up too, I Just want to assure your Heart that Sometimes what You can't Find amongst a Huge crowd of People or Mega City Market,You might Endup Hitting your Head with That Idea in A Serious, Abandon Place with Lush Greenery and Mountains!
Therefore, Just Go for that Crazy Drive and Break those Restricted Meters!
Live Off Limits!
Love ya!
Godbls!
Preksha*

State of Mind and fistful Heart!

So,Let me come up with a Straight and Direct Question!
Have you ever been Lost? I mean that Lost in which you are in senses but still very out of your mind? Wait. You think I am being Really weird! Ya,you can think so,even I feel the same, that I am being weird,weird to myself. Crying without any reasons when I'm completely at ease at home and met my family members after months,And They are like what problem do you have?-Need money ? Have trouble living there? What ?-And I am just like -Weeping,weeping,weeping! Not just able to share like thousands things that I thought I would share with my friends in person,when I see them after nearly a year,instead I again burst in tears as they leave and end up being baffled more then before as I let go of the chance to share,Also now I am quiet! Quiet as in Peace, not so like me Though!
Some people say Like - "I Have not met you from Really long!" I mean I was shocked I met them day before as well and they also meet me weekly, Then Again - A Person close to my bed said -"Something has happened to you, since you came back,You are either on phone or sleeping at Home"! I mean Something needs to be done with Myself! Amen! Lastly, I have at least started Watching Movies - In like Two months, I have watched that much movies,that I haven't watched in my 23 years of life! Great way to Have a Escape from world Around, Though not very much like Me! But visuals are Good to learn! Brain Games Man!
Sigh. Btw ,I feel at Peace from Yesterday. Though I Realise why I feel at Peace and finally a No reason kind of smile prevails! But let me just not get selfish and act so hard on Preksha's Sweet self .Anyway, I feel so Relaxed and quiet In Loving mode! Yeah, I feel happiness and a relaxation! Thank you universe, My higher Self! Let me Love forever ! Much Love!
Love ya!
Godbls ya!
Preksha*