I Either Cry or Turn Into Psychopath!

Can I Scream It Out Loud Today? Like from the Top of the Seven-Storied Building Maybe? I Just Can't Keep quiet,though I am Numb. Something Is vigorously in Motion inside,I am unable to See through properly, As I am clouded by my own set of emotions and Imagination.
I want to scream to my heart for being so still in the situation of highest disorder I can feel.I am breathing, I am in Senses but Trust me I am Just out of sync.I am Seeing something and scared like hell,No its not A Haunted Story.I am Scared and Excited simultaneously. I want to See what happens,As it unfolds but well, no doubt I am losing my breath with the feel of possibility.I am scared of whatever I can't take, I am scared of losing track of people I recently associated with.That's sort of Crazy I can feel possessiveness in my heart though they might not feel a single tingling.I don't know what's wrong with me,trust me all's normal but Something Is just not Right behind the doors.I am so jerk to figure that out.At this point of time, I feel as if I can't vibe with anyone,like I don't belong to any place I have ever been to.I am not in a blue state but genuinely, madly,deeply I want some hand on my head and just be there. I want to feel that state of security in my heart, that level of satisfaction. I am falling apart.I am so scared.Not with a person or situation but with the level of my imagination. I want to be rescued.I want to breathe in set of pairs,in which I am secured of myself.I Again repeat, I am terrified of my breathe,I want a place where I am sure I am secured.I don't want to start over,I have started, I gave Trust of my breathless heart,not Again.I am scared.
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Godbls!